In the past Four (4) years, I’ve been on a journey of building intimacy with God through prayer and spending loads of time studying His word. While I am blessed to see a different dimension of God each day, one attribute of Him that has stood out daily is His heart as a Father towards me.

I have built a stronger and more intimate relationship with God than I’ve ever had with my earthly dads (my biological father and my step-daddy, both who love me unconditionally and dearly). I never thought I’d ever say this but it is true. There are things I bring to God, pour out to Him that no one really knows except Him. I have found this freedom in being able to share EVERYTHING with Him. On the days that He gives me the gift of His presence, it’s so overwhelming I become speechless and I just find myself crying all through.

I see His forgiving heart towards me daily. I have seen His protective side as well, instructing the angels to keep charge over me every day. He has provided for me daily and continues to. I’ve seen Him comfort me on many nights when I felt I could not make it and I know the pep talks He will have with me on those nights to get me back to full strength. I have seen Him teach me things I do not know and give me understanding in my confusion. He usually will warn me of what’s coming ahead and the times that I did not make some good choices or decisions, I saw His disciplinary side towards me and I’ll spare you the details on this one. Even in His discipline, His mercy trumps any punishment I deserve. When you read Deuteronomy 1:31: “There you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.”, that scripture is how He is dealing with me daily, carrying me in the palms of His hands.

The mind blowing part of this Father-daughter relationship is His love which is so overwhelming I can’t wrap my head around it. To be able to see how much He loves me and His heart towards me, it makes me feel invincible sometimes. I get lost immensely in the knowledge that God truly loves and cares deeply for me. He knows me, and everything about me. It’s the kind of love that no man, born of humankind can ever measure up to. It’s pure, it’s without merit and it’s everlasting. Sometimes in my weakness, I try to run from it but He chases me down and finds me so really, I can’t run away from Him and I could never repay Him for His love. It’s that love that brings me peace and makes me feel so secure in life. Going to bed feeling loved and waking up knowing that His love and goodness is renewed for me and better each day, is a place only He can bring you to. I’m spoiled by the Father and I’ll have it no other way.

I can write thousands of pages about the heart of my Father Jesus and the relationship He has with me, but I pray for you that if you have never experienced His heart, you will make a decision this week to embark on a journey of intimacy with Him so He can show you who He truly is. He is without question the “One God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.” (Ephesians 4:6).

XOXO,

Lady Abena