There is a subtle myth that you constantly have to be strong. Somewhere along the way, we bought into the idea that weakness is failure, and that struggle means we’re doing something wrong. Especially among us believers – the unspoken pressure to “hold it all together.” We quote Scriptures, put on brave faces, and keep our pain hidden. But here’s the truth—God never asked us to be perfect; He wants us to be real.
This month of April has challenged me in so many ways I couldn’t have made it without God’s help and my support system. I had so many questions for God. I’ll wake people up sometimes at 2:00am wherever they are located and they will lovingly answer their phones from another continent and stay with me till I’m done letting out my emotions and fall asleep. The beautiful part is they will pray over me quietly as well. I remember telling a friend, “please save the scriptures for someone else because I’ve read them all. I just need God to have a seat right here so we can have a chat.”
God is not shocked by my struggles or emotions. He isn’t disappointed by my tears or questions. He wasn’t disappointed when I told Him, “God you have let me down.” He wasn’t waiting for me to fix anything because He knew I couldn’t. He gives me permission to be human while He does the work of healing and restoration. He knows He has given me the grace of faith and I never doubt His ability. I just ask why He allows certain things to happen but His grace meets me wherever I am. In the valleys or up on the mountains, grace still speaks for me.
So, my dear friend, breathe and cry if you need to. Wake up people from across the globe if you have to talk to someone, cry or need a prayer to strengthen you. Most importantly, lean into Jesus, knowing very well that even in your lowest moment, He is holding you and ALL of you. Nothing missing, nothing broken.
Xoxo,
Lady Abena.